"Death is a great loss to a carnal, worldly man, for he loses all his earthly comforts and all his hopes; but to a true believer it is gain, for it is the end of all his weakness and misery. It delivers him from all the evils of life, and brings him to possess the chief good. the apostle's difficulty was not between living in this world and living in heaven; between these two there is no comparison; but between serving christ in this world and enjoying him in another. Not between two evil things, but between two good things; living to christ and being with him. see the power of faith and of divine grace; it can make us willing to die. in this world we are compassed with sin; but when with christ, we shall escape sin and temptation, sorrow and death, forever. but those who have the most reason to desire to depart, should be willing to remain in the world as long as god has any work for them to do. and the more unexpected mercies are before they come, the more of god will be seen in them."
I realize this doesn't seem to have much to do with the mission trip in haiti, but it has everything to do with it. this is an issue that i've struggled with my entire life because i didn't let god into my life until i was 27 years old. part of the reason why i wanted to go on this mission trip was to seek god and grow that relationship and understand him more. this revelation and understanding he gave me about my mother is something that was a huge breakthrough for me. perhaps it can be for you as well.